right now, i want to just let my fingers move and type whatever is coming into my head
i am listening to music and trying to distract myself from things. it really does help to listen to music. people make all those stupid songs that are like "music make you lose control" haha like that one hip-hop song that i think is ciara? i dont know. music inspires so many people. everyone can understand it. how wonderful. right now, i am grateful to wolfmother for distracting me with their wonderful song vagabond. look it up.
i think good friends are hard to find, but it is even harder to be a good friend that people want to find. i'm certainly not the best friend. i try to listen and try to help but i guess sometimes its not really enough for some people. but thats natural. not everyone can like everyone. sometimes thats hard to face. i know it is for me.
friends are really nice to have. they are also very delicate. all people are. sometimes being with a friend comes really natural and sometimes you have to push to keep the conversation going.
i feel very awkward socially today. i had to push to keep most of my conversations going. but you know what? i don't think anyone noticed. i'm getting good at faking. some people you just can't relate to.
i love the dave matthews band. it reminds me of my dad and my childhood because he would listen to this stuff all the time when i was little. its super comforting. right now i am listening to satellite. it's lovely, like a blanket that just got out the dryer. or hot chocolate. or a kitty.
i want to transfer to hillcrest. but that is a long story i will tell you later, my friend.
satellite is over. i don't like the song that's on.
