You know when you meet someone for the first time and talk to them and then feel like you shouldn't waste any more time apart from them? Because I do. You also know that feeling where you meet someone for the first time and then want to be around them all the time but it's a very one sided feeling?
Because I do.
And I am one of those people who say everyone in your life is there for a reason. I believe that whole-heartedly. So that's why it's so confusing when you feel like someone should be in your life, but they obviously don't feel the same way.
I mean, really? I don't understand how a connection like that could be one-sided. Thinking about it, I get a little down on myself.
And then looking at my life, I see all the people that WANT to be there, because they make the effort. It's a mutual thing. And that is a good feeling when you realize people want to be a part of your world. So the way I see it, the people who should be in your life are the people who make an effort to stay there.
I'm not going to stop trying to be a part of that person's world if I feel so strongly about it, but in the end it's not enough if I'm the only one who feels that way.
Relationships are very double-sided, and in the end if one person is trying and the other isn't, then it can't work. That doesn't mean you shouldn't try.
I'm still trying to understand why it's not meant to be, but maybe I won't know for a while. Or maybe it's just not supposed to happen right now in my life. Either way, it does me no good to sit and try to figure out what I'm doing wrong. I just need to surround myself with the people who want to a part of my life. That's the only way to truly be happy.
