angel boy

I saw him again at the ice skating rink.

His name is Sam

Hannah and Sam? How cute

It's fate

smash jason mraz

I'm angry.

I was driving home from dance and heard Jason Mraz singing "I'm yours" on radio disney. I got his huge burst of anger. I wanted to go punch his stupid face and break his stupid nose and smash his stupid, happy guitar and then burn those lyrics until they were nothing but stupid, unrecognizable, ash. I hated how blissfully happy he was when I was sitting here with unhappy and dry eyes burning in my crappy decisions. How can people be so happy when there's so much to be sad about?

If only I could just cry and then maybe the huge pit of absolute despair that is eating away all my organs will go away. It could be a release. But no. For now, I have nothing left to look forward to except maybe having the pit eat my liver so I can drink more apple tinis.

I'm kidding.

I want to destroy something. Do something destructive. I want this ugly pit to go away. I want to do something wreckless and crazy and get rid of it. This doesn't even correctly explain how I feel. This times a million.

And it's been like this since wednesday.

This stupid, ugly, monstrous, hole in my inside.

I hate boys.

an angel at the ice rink

So Yesterday....

I went ice skating for Young Women's. I hadn't been in more than a year and so I thought I'd be good this time and maybe not cling to the wall like before. After about a half an hour I was shuffling around the ice like a semi-normal ice skater! But that's not the important thing that happened to me yesterday. I saw the most beautiful person I have ever seen in my life. He was an absolute angel. He was wearing a grey abercrombie hoodie and jeans. His hair was longish curly, and a golden brown color. Almost blond, but had too much gold in it to be. He had really light brown eyes that shined and were absolutely gorgeous. He was tall and muscular. He looked like an angel. At first Sadie and I were just like "Oh yeah, that kid is pretty cute." But no. Then we realized (or at least I did) how gorgeous he was. I stayed on the ice forever just watching him skate even though my ankles were killing me. His smile was drop dead gorgeous, and made my heart stop every time. Soon my ankles got to be too much so I went back to go sit and watch from the seats behind the glass. Soon we were back out there, but to my disappointment he was gone. We decided to skate around one more time. As we were going on our last round, I look to my right to the glass wall. There was the angel boy. Standing behind the glass looking at me and smiling his drop dead gorgeous smile. I fell. I had to go sit down and stop hyperventilating and calm down for a while. That's how great it was. If I could just see him again and he could smile at me, I could die happily right there. It makes me so sad that I may not ever see him again. Seriously, if you put rob pattinson and the jonas brothers in a room with this kid, there would be no contest to who was the most beautiful. It wasn't just his looks, though, he just had the most beautiful spirit that was just radiating.

Stupid angel boy.

haircut??

Okay another Rob Pattinson one.

I'd heard he'd shaved off his hair and it basically ruined my day. I told my best friend Morgan and we couldn't stop talking about. We were mad.

Then just barely I look up a picture of it.

You think you love his long hair.....

Please look to above and see his short hair.

Beautiful.