winter break

It's finally here! Winter break! But you know what? So far the anticipation was more exciting than the actual break. I know, it's only been a few days, so I guess I can't really make the best judgement. But it's been a bore fest. My family has been super uptight because we are so not ready for Christmas. Not that we really get Christmas this year. We don't have a lot of money because of all the medical problems/bills we've had this year, so we won't be doing/getting a lot. Even still, we're not ready. We have no family presents or neighbor presents out. I'm having a party tomorrow but, of course, we're not ready for that either. Hopefully it will get better.

I did get to play with my BFF Morgan today! I slept at her house yesterday. And she is my favorite person in the entire world. I love her :)

Anyway, that's all I have to say right now. I'll check back in later to tell you if the break has gotten any less boring. Which it hopefully will.

You know you love me

XOXO

Hannah Girl

rob pattinson love.

Right now, I'm talking about my favorite subject. My current love. Rob Pattinson. Lately, I've been in this Rob Pattinson daze. I'm in love. I listen to his songs and I can't help but think "Rob Pattinson, how is it fair that you get to be this beautiful?". It's not. His songs are probably some of the most beautiful things I have ever heard in my life. Oh yeah, and he plays the guitar to them too. I tried to learn his song "Never Think" and I'm convinced it's impossible. I love how he is kind of awkward socially, but totally charming about it. Ya know? For some reason, I really like people like that. They have some weird, quirky habits that no one else has. But that is what makes them beautiful. So that would make Rob Pattinson f-ing gorgeous. Which he is. I am in love with him and I have no where to put all this love! Don't you hate loving something that is completely unaccessible?  Let me explain. First, he's 22. I'm 14. That's kind of an age difference. Not that I really care, but he'd technically have to wait 4 years for me. And other people would freak. Like.... my Dad. Second, he lives in England where I may never go in my life. I live in small town Sandy, Utah, where HE will probably never go in his life. Third, he's gorgeous. And I could never compare to that. He played freaking EDWARD CULLEN, and only the most beautiful people can do that. Could I play a vampire? No. I could not. Fourth, there are people all over the world that may just be as in love with him as I am, so would he really take the time to listen to me? Would I stand out? Nope probably not. I'm just another adoring fan. And lastly, I'm pretty dang sure he has a girlfriend. An older, prettier one, most likely. 

What do I do with all of this Rob Pattinson love??

Please look at that picture above. How can you not be in love with that?

I have convinced myself that I can only marry someone exactly like Rob Pattinson. Because he's perfect. How is it fair that he is that perfect?

It's not.

Till later:

With Love Love Love Love, Hannery Duff :)

Winter Break! Can't Wait!

Can I just tell you how much I cannot wait for Winter Break? (I'm being politically correct by saying Winter Break of course when I'm really excited for CHRISTMAS). I'm looking forward to doing things with my Ayley-pants and Sadie. We're planning on doing lots of Christmas things to get in the spirit. These things include decorating christmas cookies, buying presents for all our friends, picking out christmas dresses (I think our colors this year are gonna be purple, red and white), and doing a lot of service projects for our neighborhood and for other places including the shelter and soup kitchen in salt lake and the food bank. My family is planning on doing many service things this Christmas, to spread the joy of the season to everyone else. We're doing the Sub for Santa, which you can find at this website if you are also interested in helping spread joy to other families this Christmas season. This season should be about service anyway, and giving to other people. There are so many people out there who are so much less privileged than us, and we should reach out to them, especially during Christmas. I'm so excited to do these things! The year before last, my family did Sub for Santa. It really brought our family together, picking things out for another family. We really put ourselves aside to think about what this other family would enjoy. It was a lot of fun! I'm not just looking forward to that, but my family hasn't been skiing in at least two years and this year we're going to start up again! My dad said we might go on CHRISTMAS day (if it's open). But how perfect would that be? Open up all your gifts and then go out and play and ski in the snow when it's dark and you can see all the stars. That just sounds perfect.

I can't wait to get out of school and play for CHRISTMAS!

Worry!

I was thinking today about how much things have changed in my life. When I think back to when I was in elementary school, I can't remember a single worry I had. Those were simpler times. Except for in about sixth grade when I ran for SBO and I was really worried about what people were thinking of me. My self-esteem was so terrible that I didn't even vote for myself in that election. How sad is that? Anyway, I didn't worry about much then. But then the world kinda sinks in and you realize how much people will notice about you. It's not a child's world. There's normal and then there's not, and most people want to stick you somewhere in those two categories. I always catch myself trying to stick the people I know into a label, because that's the kind of world we've grown into. Why can't things just be simple? Why can't everyone scrape their knees and eat leaves off their trees because someone told you it was lettuce (true story)? I truly wish my life would get simple. I'm always worried about something, whether it's in the moment or if it's upcoming. I miss being able to do the things i used to do. Things get too complicated now.